Saturday Night.....Alone

Saturday night.......

Im home alone debating on whether I should delete my myspace. Hmmm?? I have no followers on here, & I dont know how to get them either lol. I have 5033 views on my myspace blogs..... maybe I should keep it until I build my fan base. Idk myspace is for kids. I had a little boy send me a friend request talking about "damn u fine" && Im like is this what my internet has come to?? Dang where are the grown men at to give me the same compliment?? lol.

I am better today. Ive been in an ok mood. I was in a good mood earlier. I looked good, my comission was ok, then I felt a certain type of way when I made a phone call to someone && I didnt get " You wanna do something tonight?? "

I guess I could asked him but I just want to feel wanted. I want him to wanna hang out with me, not hang out with me because I asked. Im dropping hints like Ima be at home, by myself, on a saturday night, stupid rain. && this nigga is like yeah Ima go chill at my cousin's house I'll call you when I get home.

Can you believe its been 4 yrs on & off?? SMH we dont get along because when he's out on a Friday night & doesnt call me I call him at 5pm on Saturday & he doesnt care to see me......its a problem that Im not having!! Lol && he's the same way! If I was to be out all night long & didnt care to see him the next day he wouldnt like that. I spend to much effort mirroring what I see to prove a point, knowing that my point will never get acrossed.

-Deep Sigh-
What can u do??

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Its Just One Of Those Feelings I Wont Be Able To Explain Until I Feel It

Ok ......

I still dont know what Im doing! This can not be this difficult.....can it??
Obviously it can if I am still having trouble getting it together, right?

Anyways it's reaching 5 am && I still cant sleep. Secretly I think Im going crazy. Ive been in a bad mood for 3 days && I dont even know why, or where the attitude even came from. SMH I am a mess!! My heart is heavy, Im sad, Im soo mad, Im lonely...... I dont know how to fix it tho. I dont know how to make it this feeling go away. Im not sure of what I want. Im stuck guys!

I wanna say Its the love && the friendship that Im dying for..... that Im so in need of. Im not sure if thats it tho.... because I call someone up && I get even more angry for ...... I guess I get angry because that person is not giving me the conversation that I want. That person is not making me feel the way I want to feel. I dont expect you guys to understand, because I dont even understand. Its just one of those feelings I wont be able to explain until I feel it -Deep Sigh-

Do you guys think Im crazy??? Lmao
Me Too!! He he

On that note..... Ima go to bed

Thanks For Reading! : )

Good Night!